off work early

quite sure it is a wander through the city alone day. Window shopping and people watching and quiet reflection that this time of year brings me. It's funny how candid moments appear more spectacular when you are alone. I'm kind of quiet this week, which is strange because I usually feel like a motormouth, letting every drop of dribble come out of my face and sounding like an ignorant little girl. But I'm feeling like an ignorant little girl, it's been too long from school and my retention is poor. I'm not interested in politics and don't like to get into discussions about it anyways because most of the time it is just personal preferences to the little bit of knowledge that we think we know about issues/power/and people in power. Who really knows the truth in all that and why should I believe anything that is professed in media. Everyone has their own spin. And feeling ignorant on top of it all because instead of spending down-time reading, doing crafts/hobbies, I have spent all my down-time playing with my little cousins, kid-sitting, hanging out and talking with friends and family. Not doing anything to increase my intellect but making memories and cherishing the people I'm around. And I love how each person rubs off on me a little, but I don't feel any smarter today. I feel quiet and of average intelligence and looks. Oh you have got to love contemplation. Another week and Dan starts his new job, and our schedules will dramatically change as will our time together. I'm a little nervous at how this will change me, as I am kind of paranoid. ANXIETY