So the day started out great!

Not really. I stayed up late (eliptical & pilates), then stayed up even longer so that I could call my brother at midnight and sing happy birthday to him. Fell back asleep and 5am came too soon, got out of bed at 530, got ready for work, put on the outfit I had chose out the night before, too tight! next, too tight! next! and so on. I left an hour later than I wanted to, without breakfast and without Dr. Pepper (so sad!). Got stuck in traffic, and was rear-ended (happy birthday to me!@#$%&*@). It wasn't bad, didn't leave any marks or anything but had to get off mcloughlin to some weird side road close to Ross Island bridge to get out, see that there was no damage and have the trashy little teenager tell me that this was the second time she ran into somebody this week. Which made me want to yell at her and lecture her about paying attention rather than tying her shoes while she is driving. but I smiled and said I was already late and just forget about it.

So I was 45 minutes late for work and it is busy here. But my nice huz showed up with tulips, a card, dark chocolates and 3 dr. Peppers. So, that definitely helped. So, hoping the day will just get increasingly better as it goes on. See most of you tonight.

Have a nice one!

Round two.

I'm staying off the internet while I'm at work as they have started doing random internet audits. So, my posts will have to be intermittent meaning the times when I am at home, which is rare.

The birthday is still on. Wednesday the 26th at the Boiler Room round 9ish.

Hope all are doing well and that you have a wonderful weekend!

creeepy weather!

As if I had snakes in my hair and three eyes, the weather has gone wonky too! I left for work this morning and it was 62 degrees. This is mid-January and the only times we have 30 degree variations in temperature are before earthquakes and other natural events. So, I'm not so comfortable, sitting in my 4th floor office overlooking the willamette idustrial area (including the storage container for the metro area's natural gas supply). Yes, if I were truly scared I would have not come to work but it is creepy. And with this weird balmy weather the time I took straightening my crazy hair was in vain. One step outside and I have curled up and waved up looking somewhat julia Roberts-ish. It is colder in my office than outside, so my window is open and it is an all around odd day.

Have a weird one!

I will be having a birthday.

I will be having a birthday on wednesday the 26th and i shall be spending it with friends at the BR (you friends of course;) around 9pm-ish. You are all invited and the theme will be "Taryn has hot friends". So, you must dress as hot(attractively) as you think you can be. I am requesting that no one buy me anything (including drinks!) but that everybody choose a karaoke song to sing for me.

And I mean it! No gifts! NO DRINKS 4 me! We are all strapped little adults who have much better things to spend our earned money on than drinks for a red-head who doesn't need any. So there is my announcement and another one might come next friday.

Have a beautiful freezing weekend.

I'm pretty sure there are cotton balls stuffed behind my eyes.

Maybe I am a doll. I have this strange feeling like there is gobs of fluff/cotton stuffing/rubber foam in my skull and my face is being pushed out and puffed up. pretty eh?

Oh well, that's me. I'm working on convincing myself that I'm so lucky to have this job. I have been able to afford lots of needs and wants, and take care of some family at the same time. So, my horrible attitude is ridiculous! This is a paycheck, I don't have to have job satisfaction because you know... that isn't my life. I have been able to do many things that I wouldn't have been able to do without this un-fun job. Somebody slap this ingrate!

Although I can still think of many other things I could do with my time (my 3 hours a day spent in traffic/drive time). If I didn't have that, it wouldn't be so unsufferable.

Pretty rain and wind today, making me feel kind of stormy too in a lovely sort of way!
okay nothing interesting to say (obviously), so I will let you alone. Good thoughts for your day.

another work day.

there shall be no grammar or puncuation today - I declare it

I don't know what I did this weekend- I remember yesterday as I went to Seattle (IKEA, oh boy!) and sunday because we traded in my old broken car on a newer pretty subaru--- but whatever happened to friday and saturday

I am still in the grey about the whole job thing and now with this house and new car payment - I have stuck myself to maintaining my income and therefore chained myself to an unhappy workplace until something better comes up. This freaks me out-- because I am not having fun here at all!

my bleakness has taken over this morning
sorry

I will say no more except to wish all of you a great day

my heart beat thuds against my ribcage.

a dull deafening thud throughout my whole body is felt/heard. I very much crave something different. An excitement fills me when I think I might just do something out of the ordinary. Can I do this? Should I ask? The indifference to much around me begins to blend in with these bland greyish clouds above me.

But again there is something boiling deep down inside, some wind stirring around me. I think things are going to change whether I'm comfortable with it or not. Pray it changes for the better.

hope your day goes well.

Training the new manager today...

With a headache. She is quiet and so far has no personality whatsoever. She is unfamiliar with the computer from what I've seen and acts very much like a deer in the headlights. Plus, I've been told that she is going to make all of her staff take personality tests, like Briggs and Meyers or something, to figure out how she should relate to each of us. Lovely! Those of you who know me well know that a personality test on one day, might be very much altered another day. I'm not easily pigeon-holed into 1 category. This should be interesting. And this morning I had to put up a fight for my office space as they wanted to make my room and education resource library and storage for our unit. Umm... I can't work in a messy and cluttered room. That is the first thing I do when encountered with such a dilemma is clean out and organize.

So, that is my day so far. and wonderfully enough, the sun is shining on my back again and I am actually getting much stuff done. Have a beeeeautiful day!

hi, tuesday again.

back to work (hardly) and still lacking the motivation it will take to take control of my office and duties of the week but I'll try. I had a lovely weekend, T & M came over and joined me for New Years Eve. We played Celebrity Deathmatch and Yahtzee and drank Champagne and ate pizza and lots of other crap. It was nice, and I didn't have to feel like a complete loser, Huz at work and me alone at midnight. They are the big "saviours" of the weekend.

I had a strange "housewife" weekend where I cleaned and cooked and did laundry and took care of the pets and family. It was great and I feel accomplished. I'd like to continue that behaviour this year, so far I'm off to a good start. As reward, the Huz and I drove up the Old highway to Multnomah falls yesterday, it was cold, breezy, clear and beautiful. We stopped at Multnomah to get wonderful fatty mocha breves with whipcream of course. And then seeing that the snow was half way down the cliffs, we drove on to Hood River to see if it was down that low. It wasn't, so we turned around and came home, I made the most wonderful fatty cheese and bacon omelettes and sat for a while; fat and happy in my clean house, next to my great Huz.

And now, I sit in my cluttered office with the sun on my back and the beautiful blue sky calling me to come out and play, but alas! I must stay and plug on through the piles. Have a nice day.