I am insubordinate!

I wore jeans to work. I'm waiting for someone to send me home, but it won't happen.

And of all wonderful things in the world, the radio was playing great music on my way to work. Nothing makes my day like "The Cure" in the morning. There is some driving/pushing thing in "Fascination street" that makes me all buzzy inside. And then it has been good song after the next and so on. ok, welllllll today is my friday and I'm really already gone mentally so cross your fingers that I get some work done.

Have a beautiful day!

Mood improved!

Strangely enough and as much as I hate exercising... a half an hour on my eliptical crosstrainer did me good. Part of the mood was created by my apathy and lethargy, so I tried to ignore it. Stepped on, closed my eyes while my body and the machine ran. (I'd like to put some strange analogy in here because this phrase reminds me of so many sci-fi/fantasy stories I've read but I can't find one clear enough in my mind to display the feeling) Unlike the previous night where I sacked out early and watched horribly gruesome plastic surgeries until 2 in the morning.

There is this feeling also, like a little girl crouched in a corner wanting so badly to get up and wander around dark streets, shrouded in fog, and feel mysterious. Look mysterious and lovely... but that image is slightly difficult for me to attain.

And today my sentences are run-on and messy, not very poetic, and kind of raw. I think I might have to see what I can do about this feeling tonight. More of the horrible eliptical and then make myself feel dark and pretty. I used to dress with mood, now I dress to not feel moody or dress as I should for work. Talk about boring! I sleep, go to work, eat chocolate and some other foods sometimes, drive home, see family and go to sleep. There is boring for you! Where is the lovely mystery there?

Christmas weekend.

I have nice 4 day weekends this week and next. At first I was a little irritated but now I'm quite looking forward to it. I had a nice time out lastnight. Thank you IBRT for the "oldmancandy". Oh how I love them, oh how they make me happy, and oh how they make me talky. Poor Dustin sat next to me and i'm quite sure I rambled on about nothing (as I seem to do). I felt a little needy of attention and knew this and was trying to resign myself to the fact that none would be got but good company made better of me. Thank you friends.

So, I've had some strangeness dealing with my weight gain and yesterday something happened to top it off.

As many of you know, I am a dark chocolate fiend. All of the doctors where I work decided that they would supply me with this loveliness as christmas gifts this year. And I delighted in a few pieces yesterday. Later in the day as I was washing my hands in the restroom (leaning over the sink) something in the reflection caught my eye and as I looked down I found a Rorschach picture nestled in my cleavage. Dark chocolate had caught some gravity and landed in the closest place it could find, where it melted and through my activities in the afternoon been pressed together into a pretty mess. I quickly wiped away my embarassment and was quite thankful that my top had not been low enough for the plain passerby to notice at all. But as the day passed, my embarassment turned to amusement. This marked the first time that something has fallen there and not in my lap.

Have a nice Christmas Weekend. Love and hugs and well-wishes for you all.

It's like this...

Oh! What?! me? not really together. Spacey and drained but might surely come out tonight. Won't be until late though. Want to go shopping for something cute to make me feel not so drab. I know... you're thinking to yourself "Taryn! how could she be drab?!" but it's true. I have been quite drab the last couple of weeks. So, see ya tonight if I can ditch the glumpy shlump mood.

Thundergyrl out!

Ahh! Christmas week.

Well, yesterday was a bust. I went to work and after an hour of being there my boss told me to go home because she didn't have anything for me to do. So I went home picked up my husband and went shopping for some dog barriers but did not find any that would work. Ran into some friends, one of which I had not yet met in person and that was fun, glad to finally put a face to a blog-friend. And then braved the mall to get some hair products that I really wanted. Mall was horribly busy and I get pedestrian rage (rude, obnoxious, inconsiderate jr highers and highschoolers make me want to start throwing my elbows into random kidneys) which rapidly turned into such a headache that I was pretty much useless the rest of the day. The Huz was nice and let me try to sleep and when I couldn't, he played massage technician on me, which felt nice but didn't seem to help much with the head pain. I was just a big lump of useless pain on the couch, staring into oblivion for the rest of the evening and it hurt so badly that I couldn't even fall asleep. I finally fell asleep at 130 a.m. and woke at 5a.m. to a different pain. I'm so lucky to feel so good this christmas week.

At least I don't have the flu as so many of my friends do. Have a better day than I.

My list of worst christmas songs ever!

Can I help it that I love to listen to christmas songs at this time of year and I even WANT to hear the "worst christmas songs ever" at least once. No, I can't help it but after that one time then I get horribly sick of hearing them.
#1- George Michael(Wham): Last Christmas
#2- Mariah Carey: O Holy Night (about the worst version ever!)
#3- Aretha Franklin: O Tannenbaum (which she swithches back and forth between tannenbaum and o christmas tree and in the middle does a little preaching about the true meaning of christmas- the birth of Jesus Christ and then psychotically ends the song with on Dasher and Dancer so on and so forth and evil laughing at the end... who gave her the nog before recording?)
#4- Jewel: Ave Maria
#5- Jewel: Silent Night
#6- Jewel: any christmas song she sings! I'd rather stab myself in the eye with a pencil than listen to her switch back and forth between folk, classical, and pop "voices".
#7- Whitney Houston: Do you hear what I hear?
#8- The Pretenders: Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas
#9- Any body who does: Baby Please Come home (what a dumb song)
#10- (I love her, but...) Cyndi Lauper: Early Christmas Morning

Favorite Christmas songs:
#1- Alison Moyet: The Coventry Carol
#2- David Bowie and Bing Crosby: Little Drummer Boy
#3- ELP: I believe in Father Christmas
#4- Barenaked Ladies & Sarah McLauchlan: God rest ye...
#5- Sting: Gabriel's MEssage
#6- Eurythmics: Winter Wonderland
#7- Sarah McLauchlan & jewel: A Song for a Winter's Night
#8- Loreena McKennit: the whole Christmas album of her's
#9- Bing Crosby: White Christmas
#10- Barenaked Ladies: It's Christmas Time

I'm sure i'm missing a few, but it is fun to hear all of these at this time of year. Especially when I'm cleaning house and baking and the Christmas tree is all lit up and all is peaceful in my home. Everyone have a lovely weekend!

and we wonder why I'm tired...

I figured it out! I average about 3.5 to 4 hrs of sleep a night. Why? well because I'm not tired at night, I'm tired at 10am and 2-3 pm. But if I took naps at those times I'd pretty much not wake up in a timely manner. I need to move to one of those countries that has siestas. Yes, I'm an adult and yes I need naps, or I need to figure out a way to get myself to go to bed earlier and sleep longer. But working long days and sitting in traffic for about 4 hrs a day would make it so that I would get home and go to bed, get up go to work and not have any playtime at all. What's a girl to do?

Well, in the last few days we have made chocolate chip cookies, gingerbread cookies, pizelles and gingersnaps. I think I'm due to make a couple more pumpkin pies and even try out a new pie crust recipe. Plus, I got this fun bundt cake form that makes a chrysanthemum designed cake. That will be the next cooking adventure and then next week I go to my aunts house and we will be making Sprits cookies, fattigman (pronounced: fotimen) and then to my other aunts house to try my hand at Divinity. And yes, I know this makes me sound like little Suzy-home-maker, but I don't care. Christmas treats are fun to make.

OK, well... that's enough rambling about things you most likely don't care about. So I'll talk to you all later. Happy sunny freezing day!

babies babies everywhere!

It is a joyful time of year and now I hear the good news for another set of friends. HOORAY and congrats! Which reminded me that I did not post about my loved ones who are expecting. At Thanksgiving, greatgrandma-in-law was going over things to be thankful of: one cousin graduated law school, 2 close cousins-in-law each were expecting and my sister-in-law is expecting also! This was wonderful news as all baby news is! I shall be an aunty thricefold, very fun. Happiness for everyone!

Now hopefully the babybug is in the air...

Have a wonderful week

So, it's friday!

I was out late lastnight at a christmas party for work. I'm zonked. I've been ridiculously tired all week and I feel like I should get out of the house tonight but simple breathing seems to be wearing me out today. Long Beach Short bus is playing at Dante's and Jimmy Eat World was supposed to be playing at the Crystal Ballroom sometime this week but that might have been Wednesday and I missed it, i wanted to watch Lost.
There are other not so known bands playing in town tonight but I don't think I have it in me to venture out another evening. My friend and i dropped off her husband after the party last night and went around stalking old joints that we used to frequent then decided to have a very late dinner at Montage. Was good! Very intense, interesting conversation and I realized just how stressed I am about my new boss starting. And it's crap! I don't like to even use the word "stress". I can handle lots of things, I put up with a lot of crap, and I feel I roll with the flow and punches. So, why is this little thing making me so tense? and exhausted?

okay, so are we still crossing our fingers about the job apps? wonderful and thank you. Have a nice friday. buhbye la-las!

okay week.

So far this week from the weekend, I have a new windshield, a new couch, a christmas tree topper, a gold sweater, some new hair clips, and a new hair-cut. I sang my little heart out all weekend at various christmas programs, and I applied for a new job. Sounds pretty accomplished so far, lets hope it continues. I have about a gazillion things on my list of to-do's. So, cross your fingers for me for this new job and cross your fingers for my husband too. He applied for 3 jobs las week and they close on the 10th, so we won't hear anything until after that. Oh boy! Oh boy!

It was bad.

Bad dark morning. Car died twice. Started back up finally, and got back up to speed as a semi-truck passed me and kicked up a rock the size of a softball,(yes, softball not baseball!)that came crashing through the darkness into my windshield. Thinking that is was coming inside I threw up my arm and blocked my face as the pressure in the car changed when the rock hit... but it did not crash through the glass luckily. It hit and made a beautiful, spirally, beachball size break right in the middle of my windshield and a small hole in the middle. It scared the crap out of me, I couldn't decide if I should cry or turn around and get the information from that truck and then go back home and back to bed and pull the covers up over my head for the rest of the day but kept driving and called the Huz. He met me at work and took my car to the subaru place to get a new windshield. Of course it won't be fixed until after one so I set the man up in an empty office to sleep until he heard from the dealership.

Yes, it was bad but the weekend is here so it can only get better. happy friday to you.

*plop!*

there is poetry spinning yarns in my mind, some might to spill into a keyboard and woven into blankets of words be shared in days to come. We'll have to see. Have a nice day.

Ope! and no cookies were made lastnight, instead I met my mom for dinner and bought new shoes, knee-high dark brown boots, black comfortable shoes, christmas present shoes for the mom and one more gift for one un-named. I'm starting to feel old, I longed for comfortable shoes... Aerosoles was having a sale. Isn't that a store for middle-aged women? Oh well, they are cute and comfy. Wisdom as we age, I just might never purchase shoes at payless again!

T`was the first of december...

and all through the house, 3 hairy creatures stirring and mess of fur round the place. I vacuum daily, and have put a barrier around the christmas tree to diminish the spread of needles and save the rest of my ornaments (as three have been lost to the giant tail). And now the christmas baking has started we've made pumpkin pies, and pecan pies and cookies will be tonight. And this weekend will be the Pizelles and I have to try out the new bundt cake form I got for christmas from the mil. It shaped like a chrysanthemum, beautiful! I think a dark chocolate cake with some pretty sprinkled confections on it, might be nice. Plus, I'm thinking about getting a cookie press, and a whipper. Because fresh whip cream is just so much tastier than cool whip and whippers are just so speedy!

We came into a little play money which allowed us to pay our last credit card off, put some emergency cash into savings, purchase a new couch and new tires for the subaru. We have designated some christmas cash and the Huz has picked out a new Chainsaw which I'm sure I will be enjoying the benefits of this spring. It was kind of perfect timing as we were getting a little nervous about the vacation, and christmas and the huz not having vacation time yet. But as always, things seem to work out. But of course, now it is gone just as fast as it came.

Well, I put the Loreena McKennitt- Winter garden album on and will now plod along on all the busy work sitting here at my desk. Have a beautiful first of december day!