*meh*

The husband slept for over 20 hrs yesterday, and today is feeling much better. But I, on the other hand, slept horrible (if at all). I wasn't actually able to close my eyes until around 2am, for no reason other than they wouldn't stay shut with lots on my mind. And then I fell asleep and the dog wanted out, and then I fell asleep and woke 20 minutes later too hot, and then husband coughing, then me coughing and choking, and finally a good sleep came around 6am but the alarm went off at 645 and I changed it to 745am but my brother called at 720am. I got up at 8am and put clothes on and came to work. i have messy hair and little make-up, feeling all around gross and messy and would like very much to just go back to bed.

Ok, well at least I don't have plans today. I can just work and go home. You have a nice day.

I survived, but now to survive the family.

Everyone in my family got the sickness, everyone! Cousins, aunts, uncles, dads and now my mom and husband. And of all of these... these two are the worst at sickness. My mom cries because of her earache and wants me to run around all over the world and help her do housework and so on (which is ironic because I had a good temperature, earaches, soreness of every kind and her response was "toughen up an earache is not something to stay home from work with!" So you can imagine her surprise when i started laughing when she told me (in tears and sobs) that her ear hurt.
And my husband just gets...well, you know... he's a guy.
He's not horrible, it's just different because he's never sick! But when I left him this morning he had quite a high temp, was difficult to wake and was moaning. Which made me feel like I shouldn't go to work but I did after I gave him medication to lower the fever. So, to say the least I will be leaving early to take care of the husband.

I stayed home all weekend, did the easter thing with dinner and baskets with the whole sick family. And then spent the rest of weekend cleaning house and closets and just making my world a better place. Hooray!

Okay it's wednesday the week is on it's way downhill to the weekend. I could so get used to this working only 3 days a week thing! It is loverly!

*smile* *wink*

Hi!
Friday morning and I don't have much to say except have a good weekend and I hope this day flies by for you.

ok, buh-bye!

Hee hee

Well, I had a fun night last night. I was there to hang out with T but was distracted by other things and was able to talk to N about St. Patricks night fiasco. I admitted to stalking a guy from a former blues band and embarrassed myself a bit with that, turns out the guy was in his mid-forties and was quite flattered that I had a mini crush on him, but you know how that one ends. As soon as you actually meet and talk to the object of attraction it goes away... at least for me as I am married. I do the "talk talk talk--- oh my husband (fill in blank)" so that there are never any misconceptions about my attention and intentions. But it was nice to be flirted with a little.

Well, I'm sorry i didn't spend more time with T last night though, her work is bad! And I wanted to be fun for her but she was already in a fun mood and M was entertaining her much. So, I was actually social and flitted about. I hope you all have a nice day today. talk to you later.

New stage in my life.

I have finally gotten to this stage in my mind that I must throw stuff away. I must accept my age and that I may never be a size zero, two, or four ever again ( i don't think that a sz 6 is too unrealistic for my body type though, so I'm still holding on to that dream). That I must get healthy and I don't need to hang on to old pictures from highschool and stuff. So, this week I have spent much time re-organizing. creating piles of clothes from Jr. High and highschool and early college that I may never fit into again no matter how cute they are or how motivated I get to lose weight. And I am not kidding about the clothing and shoes. 78 pairs of shoes, two closets and a dresser full of clothing much of which I haven't worn for 2 years. Lingerie that I got at my bridal shower that was worn once and never will be worn again just because of the horror that is pale ass in thong type styles and the laughter that ensued when it was worn the one time.


Strange! I don't know if I like this growing up/maturing thing!

Last night was stupid.

I am stupid for going out! I can't believe how ridiculous people can be. And how drunk women can be so horribly manipulative and rude. Let's just say that I was moved to the point of cussing, irritated to the worst extent I have ever been, and little'ol calm me... I wanted to start throwing elbows and fight!

I have never been lifted of my chair to have some drunk lady continuously spit in my face while she is heatedly telling me stuff that I'm supposed to be impressed over, and then be accused of flirting and throwing myself at someone and that in the scheme of her ranting was trying to be protective or some lie like that. #1. I don't care, #2 nobody is that important, (she was a promoter and claimed that Snow Patrol and John Mayer would not even be famous or popular if it had not been for her, you know because they have no talent whatsoever! geez! people!) #3 what do I have to gain by lying about anything? #4. I only throw myself at one guy! and that's my husband! #5 I don't need strangers to tell me about people I already know and #6 if what was accused to be said about her was actually said, it would have served her right, because she was not nice!

And then there was the girl sitting across from me, which sorry Spooky and Ebatt, she has never made a good impression. She was obnoxious, I thought I had made it very clear that I wasn't interested in socializing with her, and she just kept on. "You should be happy, isn't this fun? don't I have the best boobs in the bar?, You should talk to me! I'm smart I'm Italian blah blah blah!" Well, when you have to tell people that your smart, that is just acknowledgement that you obviously don't appear to be. And why your ethnicity should make any deference to that, I don't know. Plus when she introduced herself and I told her that we had already met at Spooky's place, she argued with me that we hadn't and that she was not at that little houswarming party. How bright is that? Arguing with me over something that even all of her friends could attest to. Idiot!

Yep, the night was almost a horrible waste. At least dinner (and a couple guinness) was nice with people I do like (and my nice friends also bought me a car bomb and a butter baby shot at the bar, so that was incredibly nice and needed). I'm tired today and have already had just as bad a start to the day as yesterday. I have just been completely incompetent here at work, or not so much incompetent as not on the ball. I guess, I have checked out and am finding it hard to deal with. I would like to think that the quality and efficiency of my work would stay the same whether I like a job or not, but Damn this "being human" thing!


Ok, that was my whining and complaining rant for this month. Have a good weekend!

a tiny bit Irish

And totally adorned in green today... because I'm like that!
I like to dress for the occasion, and today I will be listening to some Irish musicians while typing away. I most likely will stay in tonight but I feel more like going out today than I did last night. I was so not in a social mood and was not into talking or dressing up, the renovation should start soon and I was feeling huge, tired and I still feel/sound crappy. I have never had a fever come and go throughout six full days. It's so stupid!!!

So, I am quite enjoying all your entries as of late. Entertaining! I feel like a voyeur, a fly on the wall of your lives. It makes me feel a connection with you, without having to be involved in stuff that in most cases would be time consuming to hear about verbally because it would entail conversation and some parts would be missed because of questions or tangents. I do care for most of you, I'm not saying that I wouldn't take the time to listen to you. I just like this forum. I think mostly, because I like to listen and don't feel obligated to comment.

I learn more about you when I keep my mouth shut. and since I only know most of you from one setting, it is puzzle pieces put together here which solidify why I like you in that other setting. But truly you are all entertaining and I feel so mediocre in the grand scheme of it all.

Why watch TV when there are real people who are living lives so different from eachother that you can read about and interact with. It's fun!

Well, this was all a bit of nothing. happy St. Patricks day.

fallen off the face of the earth due to sickness.

What can a fever do for a girl who doesn't like to drink a lot of water... well, puniness, prolonged confusion and exhaustion. My fever only fluctuates up four or five degrees and I run a normal of 96.4 so it is just tiring. My whole weekend (which lasted until tuesday) has been filled with chills, sweat, nose blowing, stuffiness, coughing and wheezing,but it didn't stop me from my normal activities like window shopping, going out with the Huz, helping friends move, working on the reunion crap, cleaning a little bit of house, and the general running myself ragged as I like to do. I was polite enough to carry disinfectant wipes with me when I sang on Sunday and although I went out monday, I did very little after helping load and transport stuff for friends. Karaoke from Hell, was entertaining and all I did was spectate and wish "The Trip" Hapbday. Yesterday I tried to feed away my cold with steak and green beans, that didn't work. And I was unable to rest for more than a half an hour at a time through the night and was distracted by old movies on AMC. Luckily I slept in and didn't arrive to work until 0930. But staring at this computer and trying to breathe is wearing me out today. I might still show up at the BR for the wednesday night thing, but dressed like I'm from the future--- I don't know. So, ok I must fly work is calling.

tee hee

I'm a slacker. I am wearing jeans to work, and I plan on leaving right after my little going away party and some how it makes me feel mischievious and rebelious, since I'm not going away yet. I'd like to care but don't today. The sun is pulling me outside and I can not ignore it. I really should take some time off before starting a new job. Burn out is heavy and smothering lately. And focus is worse.

So, I will be moving crap around my office, and throwing and organizing other stuff and then eating much and leaving for the weekend. Next week will start my 3 day work week and so I have a nice 4 day weekend. That doesn't hurt and might actually help!

Ok la-las, have a beautiful weekend!

Chocolate Lucky Charms!!!!

Well of all things!?!?! when I am craving cereal it is either Lucky Charms or Coco Puffs. (This is craving cereal not breakfast options, get me right.) Well, I have happened upon Whole grain Chocolate Lucky Charms and have died and gone to heaven! I've gone through a whole box in one week. It's crazy.

I almost dug myself a hole with the work thing and was feeling a little irritated this morning as I sat in traffic. But did find out that I will only be working part-time here temporarily...like a month maybe. Hooray!!!!! As if that is not cool enough, a job option has popped up and is sounding very good ($$$), is in sunnyside/my drive time would only be 15-20minutes, so that is a huge hooray, and then I was one of those people sitting in traffic last night with a perfect view of Mt. St. Helens as it was erupting. It was awesome and to think I was just up there on Saturday, I was all giddy and trying to call Dan on my cell to let him know so he could run up the hill to see it, but he was not as excited as I. Go figure!

So, that is today's recap of current events in the meaningless life of Taryn. Hope to see some of you later tonight! Buh-bye!

kinda wierd... kinda close!

"What does your birth month reveal about you?"

January
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking andproductive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very Stubborn and money cautious.


So, that being said. Money cautious: I was talked into staying on part-time until I find a new job and so that they can hire somebody and I can train them. What an incredible idea!

the part about "likes to criticize" I wish that weren't true but it mostly is... I'm pretty critical about strangers but I am quite loving so I may feel critical about something but I'd love you and spend time and energy on you anyways! And the "always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses" is true but in a sympathetic/empathetic way or just to make myself feel better about myself ;) tee hee. The truth hurts.

OK, talk to you later!

It has begun...

the scrambling to get every last thing done before I leave this place,
the harassment from the husband about finding a new "in-between" job,
the lists of things I'd like to do with my time off,
the cleaning out of closets, binders, notebooks, computer files, you name it!
the panic of no dependable paycheck in the coming weeks,
the realization of stopping the spending whenever I want, on whatever I want.
the little crazy flutter inside of my chest doing a happy little jig,
the immense relief of not having to sit in traffic for 3 hrs a day,
the big breaths I have to keep reminding myself to take as this change gets near.
Yes! today, tomorrow, thursday and friday. I feel like squealing and giggling.

Have a good day.

HI

that's it for friday.

Coldplay day. A rush of blood to the head. Moody eh?

T's party was great!

Everybody showed up in vintage gear and vintage hair styles and everyone sang wonderfully, which was phenomenal also. I, as usual, had a few too many drinks for singing and should have just passed the last 2 drinks and the last song. But will wonders never cease? that was not the case. there is a slight headache and weirdness that makes me feel like I'm getting old and should only stick to a couple drinks a nights, if only one.

So, I have (not including today) 5 more work days. I'm so very excited! And I really like using the word "so" today. it is so pretty out and I'm kinda giggly because my friend Trip who runs emptynoggin.com and CinemaQueso asked me to be in two of his upcoming movie shorts. I get to play the mother in a psuedo soap opera spoof and a Julianne Moore character in a spoof of one of her films ...hopefully not Boogie nights. I guess I should have asked which one...

Ok, have a wonderful day! I think I'll hit Cannon beach this weekend, it looks as though it will be lovely!

hee hee hee...

I love theme parties. I think T's b-day party will be fun. Everyone does such a great job of dressing the parts. We just might have to sing 50's songs too!

Well, this weekend was fun. The underground tour was interesting. Much history and interesting stories. It was the ghost tour but I had no supernatural experiences. Then the rest of my weekend was plagued by reunion drama... which I don't care to go in to. And then the remainder of my weekend was relaxing. Played with my toddler cousins, walked my dog, cleaned house and played with the Huz. I am getting so excited to be out of work. I can't wait until the 11th!!!!!!

My nerves are all on edge and my mind wanders horribly. I'm not wont for daydreams, and my sleep is riddled with vivid dreams lately. So, the next few weeks should calm down and hopefully I will find some work close to home that is fairly enjoyable.

See you all tonight.

If I were feeling good at all...

I'd tell you about my weekend, the underground tour and the drama that is unfolding as I begin to create my 10 yr highschool reunion... yes the people on the committee are obviously the same maturity level as they were in highschool. Oh I'm so lucky!

But I'm dealing with a bit of food poisoning or something along those lines. So due to the discomfort and gagging that is producing I shall write more tomorrow.

Have a wonderful day.